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Biography

I was born and raised in a suburb of Chicago I'll. Named Aurora . Most of my writing is dark because dark has been most of my life I come from the ghetto where I was surrounded by poverty. I've been trying my hardest to come out and above poverty so as I work in the oil field I also write

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Writing Sample

 

Monday, October 14, 2019

2:15 PM



The line that defines us

Written by :Raul Banda



Lets define the line that makes us or breaks us...

I seem to 

Have gotten lost somewhere inbetween...

My motivation is no longer here ...

In fear of my inadequatcy to maintain a sober brain cell to tell me to get the hell up...

Dust my self off and get my shit together...

So where is the line drawn if im inbetween consciousess and a blury haze...

Please elaborate on who ive become ...

Ive distanced myself and live in the dark...

I embrace the dark and give in full of despair ...

In fear i might awake and ill no longer be here...

My precense seems to escape me ..

Lifes lessons inrage me...

Short tempered aflame with hate ...

No my child there is no escape...

It is with in me that the darkness lies ...

For with in me are these murderous and suicidal lies ...

Cry if you may but you will not escape...

Rage rage set it aflame to travel to the future ....

Only to visit your grave ...

But oh how blissful where those moments...

Dont tell me your the one who owns them....

Souless now i travel alone...

Bones are hurting as i grow old ...

Dont let the savage beast gain control...

Its ok go on have an other smoke ...

My life ....

Looking back my life ...

What have i done ....

This darkness took over ...

And my soul i have lost...

For the darkness lies with in me ...

No one can see it if i chose to hide it inside me...

So where then do you draw the line that defines what makes us or breaks us... 

Heavens light no longer shines down on me ....

But endorses the sentence thats been place before me...

Its ok dont grieve for me .... 

Spread my ashes over the moonlit sea... 

And as i wash away remember the days that i embraced happiness...

Because this darkness is effortless...

But quick to put you through the test ...

The test of time saddly theres no way to rewind time...

So here i am dismantled eaten alive spit out and remurdered...

Remurdered my mind...

I was but a fool ...

A fool decieved by love a love that was so cruel ... 

A love that only knows abuse...

You may smile or frown ....

But dont forget to look behind you ...

Because behind you are your sins ...

Blessed be the darkness that hinders...

In my heart destroyed by all of this not multiple gun wounds ....

Within my lies the darkness so then where do we draw the line that makes us or brakes us...

My line dear child was drawn long ago ..

Chosen by me to destin myself to hell...

I can not say i would change a thing...

For the darkness lies within me ...

No i am the darkness...

A souless being condemed to an eternity of pain...

Inslave a prisoner of these chains...

I shall no longer rage or hate i will no longer be a slave ..... 

To the darkness or the line that defined us....